Is it just me or are Mondays hard for everyone?
Well, this particular morning was especially hard for me. You know the mornings where you are filled with dread for no specific reason. There's a heaviness in the air and it has wrapped it's way around your heart- a bit suffocating.
That's the one.
There are probably several factors that lead to this type of morning. This time I happen to know where my "feeling" came from. It is a weed distrust in God I have planted in my heart. A stupid weed of sin that is threatening the fruits and growth in my life. I was hoping I wouldn't see anymore weeds of distrust spring up. I was hoping I had grown past that. Yet, here I am at that familiar "crossroads" fighting with my flesh over what to do.
Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28)
He can handle my distrust of Him. I'm tempted to hide it from Him- He would be hurt, He would be disappointed in me, and He would know I failed again- I'm a flake.
Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall (Psalm 55:22)
I repeat, He can handle my/your/our distrust. Y'all, I'm determined to learn this lesson, but I have had to turn it over to my Lord, who can work trust in my heart. No matter how hard I try, I can't seem to get it right on my own. *There's ya sign, genius (I'm talking to myself here)* It can't be done on my own. Hmmm it's starting to make sense now.
Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God (Hebrews 12:2).
I don't know how long it will take for this not to be a struggle for me, but I'm going to keep praying and laying my burdens down at His feet. It's all I know to do.
Praise be to the Lord, to God our Savior, who daily bears our burdens. Selah (Psalm 68:19).
In His Name,