Thursday, September 18, 2008

Healing In His Arms

Hi guys,

It's been a while. I haven't been in a blogging mood...I know that's probably a sin! jk :)

I love you guys though! Y'all have been so supportive and have left the most heart felt and encouraging comments on my that I want to say "Thank You!".

Well guys, my spiritual life is headed back to being "normal". I don't think "normal" is the right word for this situation, because I don't believe any road God takes you down can be considered abnormal. God has brought me down this crazy road for a purpose. I'm learning and having things I learned this summer confirmed through this valley. I like to call it "My Valley Of Purpose". God has a purpose in everything He does.

Through this valley I have grown in my desire for a desire for more of Him. In the beginning of this season, I didn't want to deal with God. I was rebellious. This is probably the first time in my life I have rebelled against God on this scale. I don't say that to make you think I got caught up in a sinful lifestyle. However, I began to question so much I grew up learning. I have so many questions sometimes- especially questions of relating to non-Christians. My roomie says I have a compassionate heart. But so many times I stumble over my feelings of compassion. I see the person behind sin verses the sin. However that leads me to making excuses for people when they're are wrong. I also don't like confronting people so sometimes I find myself at a real crossroads when hanging out with non-Christians. Back to my desire for Him, I do have a hunger for Him, but not to the scale I'm praying for. My prayer is that there will be a true, deep in the heart hunger stirred up in my life.

He's healing! I'm depending on such a deeper level because now I'm depending on Him to lead me to Him. Weird. We need Him so much. We need Him just to desire Him. We can do nothing without Him.

Thanks again!

I love you guys!

In His Love,



Edie said...

Hi Jennifer! I love your term "My Valley Of Purpose". Now that is focused thinking.

"In the beginning of this season, I didn't want to deal with God. I was rebellious." I know exactly what you mean here. I am learning that this is usually such a time of growth. I have been in this place more than once but not always to the same degree. God always brings me back to the same question... "Do you want to leave too?" ... and I can only answer "Where else would I go."
From this time many of his disciples turned back and no longer followed him.

"You do not want to leave too, do you?" Jesus asked the Twelve.

Simon Peter answered him, "Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life." (John 6:66-68)

Great post Jennifer! Glad you're doing well!

Stephanie said...

I can relate to you when it comes to confronting people or being a bold's not easy at all! (But with God all things are possible. :) )
I'll be praying for you in this area, as well as that God will use all the struggles you've been going through to strengthen your faith and give you a greater love and desire for Himself.
Consider yourself hugged!

Truth4thejourney said...

Ask and ye shall be given, knock and the door shall be opened, seek and ye shall find!

I'm glad you're asking, He will meet you there, don't give up.

Angela said...

Hi, Jennifer! I am glad you are being restored in your relationship with the Lord. He is so patient with us! I hope school is going well!