It's been a while. I haven't been in a blogging mood...I know that's probably a sin! jk :)
I love you guys though! Y'all have been so supportive and have left the most heart felt and encouraging comments on my blog...to that I want to say "Thank You!".
Well guys, my spiritual life is headed back to being "normal". I don't think "normal" is the right word for this situation, because I don't believe any road God takes you down can be considered abnormal. God has brought me down this crazy road for a purpose. I'm learning and having things I learned this summer confirmed through this valley. I like to call it "My Valley Of Purpose". God has a purpose in everything He does.
Through this valley I have grown in my desire for a desire for more of Him. In the beginning of this season, I didn't want to deal with God. I was rebellious. This is probably the first time in my life I have rebelled against God on this scale. I don't say that to make you think I got caught up in a sinful lifestyle. However, I began to question so much I grew up learning. I have so many questions sometimes- especially questions of relating to non-Christians. My roomie says I have a compassionate heart. But so many times I stumble over my feelings of compassion. I see the person behind sin verses the sin. However that leads me to making excuses for people when they're are wrong. I also don't like confronting people so sometimes I find myself at a real crossroads when hanging out with non-Christians. Back to my desire for Him, I do have a hunger for Him, but not to the scale I'm praying for. My prayer is that there will be a true, deep in the heart hunger stirred up in my life.
He's healing! I'm depending on such a deeper level because now I'm depending on Him to lead me to Him. Weird. We need Him so much. We need Him just to desire Him. We can do nothing without Him.
I love you guys!
In His Love,