This post may make no sense, but I need to ramble and you seem like good "ears".
I've been thinking about my life. Okay, I do that all the time. It's true. I'm on a constant search for how to be better, do better, and live better. And I think that's my problem- I'm focused on me. Even though I'm praying for wisdom on how to live, where to live and how He wants to use me, I'm still thinking about how I can be used- how I can control the situation. The comparison game also plays a part in all this confusion. Do people think I'm crazy for not going on to get my MSW. I wonder, "Am I crazy?" or "Should I be more actively pursuing a job in my degree?". People seem to think I should. What about the passions that God has given me? I know what they are, but I don't know what to do with them. I have so much I want to do, and I want to do it now. When will it be "my time"? I really struggle with this, y'all.
Then, there are many ways I'm content with where I believe God has me. I love this space. Writing here has been good therapy and good ministry for me> My job is a blessing. Even though not my choice, it's a season of intense ministry and stretching.> Some things are in the works where I can use my passion for advocating for ministries. Good stuff.
The problem is my eyes are in the wrong place. It's never a good thing to have my eyes focused on myself or the future.
He has told you, O man, what is good; and what does the Lord require of you but to do justice, and to love kindness, and to walk humbly with your God?
Walk humbly with your God
Live as a believer in whatever situation the Lord has assigned to you, just as God has called you... (I Corinthians 7:17).
I don't have all the answers, but I know where they are found. I'm going to trust Him as I pray, seek, and live.
See, I feel better all ready. I knew "talking" to you guys would help. Oh, and the Truth's healing power helps. :)
In His Name,