This is kind of a difficult post for me. It's easier to write when God is teaching in the good times. It becomes harder when you have to write about how you are being challenged in what you've learned. But I want to be real with y'all.
I may not have dealt with Valentine's Day blues, but I am experiencing post-valentine's loneliness.
God gave me grace on February 14th by allowing me to experience His love in a very real way. My heart was tuned to Him; He was all I wanted. Those lessons learned are still very much written on my heart. Thus, the process of growth. My spiritual growth in the area of relationships does not, however, keep me from feeling lonely.
The sunrise of February 15th brought with it a case of loneliness. Unlike Jennifer Adams from the past, this present Jennifer found herself calling to Him in her moments of loneliness. *I don't say that to sound as if I have it together. I promise I do not. However, I want you to see that God has grown me in this area and He continues to do so. If you knew how far I've come...To Him be the praise*
Today, I am lonely. Lonely for him, for the guy I can give me heart to. I'm tired of being alone. I want someone to talk to after a long day; I want someone to go places with; I want someone to share my family life with; I want to hold his hand...
But that is not where I am.
Instead, I'm single. I come home to a dorm room; I get to talk to Courtney *A Bestie* after long days; I go places with the best girls in the world; I enjoy my family life and share it with friends; I hold His hand...You know what? I am so blessed. My Father has provided blessings beyond compare. He says in my moments of weakness *they happen often*, "I AM more than enough" and "Be satisfied in Me".
Thank you, Lord, that you are more than enough. Thank you for family and friends that make my life AMAZING!!!
In His Name,