Saturday, April 17, 2010

The Need to Believe

I can’t need someone to believe in me. I have to know the truth about me.

These words won a place of importance in my heart as other, not so lovely, thoughts passed through my brain.

It was a bad day. One of those days when you need someone to walk up to you and say, “I believe in you”, only because you need to hear those words so badly.

**Here is a side note that might help you see from which angle I am coming: I have been reading So Long Insecurity by Beth Moore. LOVE IT! However, I am not loving what I am finding> I am an insecure person. Sure, I already knew that. Unfortunately, it’s worse than I originally thought. Fortunately, I am already finding healing in the process.**

As I was saying, thoughts were running through my pretty little head that were not so pretty themselves. In that moment of negativity and defeat, truth came knocking. I can’t need someone to believe in me. I have to know the truth about me. hmmm **Truth should out way what I think or feel** (Lovely lesson learned from Beth).

I have the truth written on my heart and at my bedside. He believes in me and has since before the creation of the world. He knows me. He loves me.


I can’t trust the world to always speak lovely things over my life. Finding security in my circumstances will leave me tired and defeated (Another Beth lesson).

His word says that “I am His workmanship [masterpiece] created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which he has prepared in advance for me to do.” Eph 2:10

Truth will overcome the lies of Satan any day.

In her book So Long Insecurity, Beth writes, "...I have realized with fresh astonishment that although we may have something unhealthy deep inside of us, those whom Christ dwells also have something deeper. Something whole, something so infinitely healthy, that if it would but invade the rest of us, we would be healed (42)".

In His Love,


some call me Becky said...

I'm right there with you, Jennifer. It's so easy to be unsure, but hard to believe the Truth when we can't see it the way God sees and the way He said it. I was thinking yesterday of that verse in Rom. 7 that says "I know nothing good dwells in me, that is, in the flesh." I'm so aware of this. I have to remember that I live in the Spirit now, not the flesh, and the One whose Spirit is in me is VERY good. Thank God, He redeems the ugly parts of me! So why treat ourselves as anything but redeemed and worthy of His best?

Anonymous said...

Sounds like a good book. I read about it a while back... I might just go and pick it up. I know what you mean. If I relied solely on what my head and heart tell me, I'd be a wreck! I need the truth of the Bible to keep me from falling into doubt and despair.
Blessings in Christ,

elaine @ peace for the journey said...

At 44, I still struggle. I think you're on the right path and when you get God's truth regarding your identity in him into your "beautiful" little head, your life will live more fully as he intended. I'll try and do the same. Let's not just read the Word, let's sow it deep within and by faith, choose to believe it!

So proud of you. What is the future looking like for you? I know you're almost there... to your future and to what God has for you next. Keep me posted as time allows.


Cheryl said...

Just started that book. A little afraid of what it's going to uncover but so ready to work through this!!
Love you!