Saturday, March 19, 2011

Surrender

Well, you guys, I am realizing more and more that "seek" truly is my word for the year.

This year has already been a big year for me. We held our first Momentum: What Moves Us Forward youth abstinence rally in January; the abstinence committee with Crossroads Pregnancy Center was formed this month; we are planning Momentum 2012; and we are speaking as members of the abstinence committee at local youth groups, while working toward getting the abstinence program into the schools. Crazy!

It was been a wonderful year and it's only March. It has also been a stressful year. Honestly, I am the one making it stressful. I am a make it happen kinda girl. When things do not come together in a "timely" matter, I began to get frustrated. *That's my time table, not God's* Then there are times when nothing is going how I've planned, which also leads to a agitated Jennifer. Of course, God never said He would do things my way. He says in His Word, "As the heavens are than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts" Isaiah 55:9. I don't say any of this to you guys to give the impression that I am frustrated with how things are going with Momentum 2012 or the Abstinence Program. God is doing big and wonderful things in both ministries. I am honored that He has allowed me to be a part of each of them. My frustrations lie in my control issues. Yes, I have control issues. I have a love/hate relationship with stress because of my struggle with control.

My frustrations lately are with other areas of my life that need to be adjusted for my plans. Sad. Even with all my plans, the Word says, "Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen" Ephesians 3:20. To my God be the glory!

I dream, I stress, and then I give it to Him. Funny, if I would change that order of things to give then dream and drop the stress, ministry/life would go a lot smoother.

Soul Rest has been the topic of couple posts I have written as a part of Faith Jam with http://www.faithbarista.com/. I don't think the timing of this series could have been more perfect. Writing post on Soul Rest has challenged me to address my recent lack of spiritual rest. I was stumped because I was unable to physically or emotionally rest. Then I realized it was because my spirit was not at rest, caused by neglecting time with God. I was running on fumes.

Honestly, I'm still struggling. I feel like I'm trying to dig myself out of a whole. But God has been teaching me a lot about surrender, seeking Him, and Faith. In those things I am beginning to find rest. :)

In His Love,
Jennifer

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2 comments:

Bonnie Gray said...

Hi Jennifer! Your post is a breath of fresh air in the jam! We are a community of faith seekers and we can lift each other up. Thanks for being a part of this wonderful series of reflections on soul rest - serving it up hot & fresh! Hugs!

Jennifer said...

Bonnie, I love being a part of the jam sessions! The posts are so encouraging. I love meeting friends in the blogging world! *hugs*