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I had a "pity-moment", not to be confused with a "pity-party", in my quiet time this morning. It was a brief moment, only by God's grace to snap me out of it. Of course, my very real issue with pride and self-centered went a little deeper than a mere moment.
Are you thoroughly confused now?
Okay, here's the deal. I'm doing a Bible study with Beth Moore, Pricilla Shirer, and Kay Arthor, Faithful, Abundant, and True- so good. Today, our lesson was on Significance. Well, that has very little to do with what I learned this morning, but I suppose it is the vehicle that got me to thinking. From there, I found myself comparing the trials my family is going through to the walk in the park another family is basking in. I know it's silly, self-centered, and a bit presumptuous, but where my heart was all the same. Naturally, the next thing to surface were those pesky "why" questions. I wasn't two minutes into my "pity-moment" when God brought to my remembrance two little, somewhat hard to swallow, verses.
When Peter saw him, he said to Jesus, “Lord, what about this man?” Jesus said to him, “If it is my will that he remain until I come, what is that to you? You follow me!” (John 21:21-22).
You. Follow. Me.
This is where I have been during this Easter season- "Follow Me". I'm getting comfortable with in it theory, not so much in action. But, Lord, I want to.
The lesson of the day: Jennifer, get everyone else off your mind, and fix your eyes on Jesus. Follow His lead, where ever that takes you.
Happy Monday, guys and gals!
In His Name,
Jennifer
6 comments:
I've been basking in the black sun of pity a lot lately. "God, I feel so stuck! Why so much death, cancer, and addiction? You didn't take away such loved ones in other people's lives! Why can't I be happy in a career or in school like _____? Why can't I be happily married like _____? Why can't I at least make enough income to get out on my own like ____? Why are You so quiet? Why can't you talk to me like You're talking to _____?"
God uses you to talk directly to me so often, Jenn. Thank you for always being so honest as to allow Abba to do just that.
Oh Court, God has such an interesting way of leading us into the same deserts within weeks of each other, but never (not that I remember) at the same time, atleast not at the same level of despair. A few weeks ago I was asking these same questions and sinking fast into that black hole.
You know why I think God does that? Because we were made for each other. Okay, sorta. ;) I think He does that because the lessons tend to make there way back to the other one. You've done that for me a gazillion times.
I'm so grateful for you!
How about a pity FESTIVAL? (I think they call that depression. Maybe I'm not quite there yet.) His ways are so outside of anything I understand. I'm past the point of praying for answers -- I just need the faith to trust Him and make it through to the next day! "Each day has enough trouble of its own!"
Oh girl, I get that. I'm confused mess when I try to figure it all out, and yet, that's my first response. Go figure. I'm so desperate for Him to show up each and every day.
Jennifer, friend, thank you for this. Just what I needed to hear this week. Grateful for God's teaching, yes?
Sure thing, Sarah! I'm so so grateful He doesn't leave me in my pity-parties! :)
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